真面目

每个人都有自己最真的那一面。。。
但是不是每个人都会show出自己的真面目。。。
这种人真的很可怕。。。但是，世界上这种人最多。。。
多到～～～
为了自己的利益，不择手段，就算牺牲别人也在所不惜。。。
这种人太可怕了吧！！！！
但是，我不想成为这种人。。。
因为就算我会失败，但是我也不会太在意。。。。
因为我深深的相信，这个世界是有报应的。。。
而且是现世报，没有等到下一世了。。。我觉得太恐怖了。。。。
在别人面前当好人，讨人喜欢，这不是我的强项，所以我还是当我自己吧。。。。
至少我不会失去自我，不会对不起我自己。。。。
我还是原来的我。。。

First day of my working day

finally, today is my 1st day work as a trainee...
today orientation d whole day... tired but quiet interesting...
i get my working badge today... so start fr today i am an working lady ad...
no more student although my student card not yet expired... haha...
during the orientation, i learn a lot what i should do during my working life..
i mz know wat i know, i mz learn wat i dunno... if i dunno i mz ask...
but i feel like i still gt lot of thing to do as a new hire besides d task given by my manager...
tml i m going to meet v my manager... so nervous...
hopefully my manager is a nice person....
pray pray pray.... hehe...
gd luck for myself as a trainer for dis 1 year.... ^^

新生活

明天就要开始我的新生活了。。。。
开始工作了。。。。还真的有点紧张。。。
虽然是training一年，然后才决定我是否可以成为真正的员工，但好似我还是很紧张。。。。
我自己也不懂为什么。。。我好担心我应付不来，也担心我达不到老板的要求。。。
那到时我该怎么办。。。我真的很好怕。。
但是我要告诉我自己不要害怕，不要怕痛，不要掉眼泪。。
因为这是成长的过程所要面对的。。。
就这样，我的上课生涯结束了。。。。
即将踏上新的旅程，希望我可以在做到最好，希望一切顺顺利利。。。。
加油加油加油。。。。
我要每天告诉我自己---->我可以。。。。

我可以

我现在才明白这世界上是现实的。。。
到了某种时候你就会发现。。。
无论那个人是谁，到了那时候，你就会看到他们的现实。。。
这个时候，就好象一个人在海上漂，很无助，甚至觉得这世界让我很绝望。。。
一个可以帮助我的人都没有。。。每天都在想要怎么解决正在面对的问题，但是却一点办法都没有。。。
每个人都只会责备，却没有人会帮你解决问题。。。
这个时候真的很像死了算了。。。既然自己最相信的人陡然自己绝望了。。。
有时很羡慕那些当面对事情的时候有人会伸手帮他们的人。。。
但是我知道我这辈子只能靠自己，因为我知道这世界上没有会对我这样的人。。。。
所以我一直都相信我一定可以的。。。
这么多年了，我也活得好好的，未来的日子，我相信我也一定可以的。。。
那些曾经瞧不起我的人，你们等着吧。。。
有一天，一定会轮到我瞧不起你们的时候。。。
风水轮流转。。。

到家了

终于都到家了。。。就这样我离开了UTM。。。
我的大学生活就这样结束了。。。。
本来以为我不会舍不得的，但是原来在一个地方久了还是有感情的。。。
现在我却有点想念UTM了。。。
更想念那里的上课的生活。。。。
还有就是我的朋友们。。。
尤其是我的三个姐妹。。。。
虽然有时会有些摩擦，但是毕竟是在一起生活了四年的朋友。。。
感情不会说变就变的。。。。
而且在我回的时候他们哭了，我真的感动到～～～～
幸好我离开的快不然我想UTM会淹水吧。。。。
我想我真的会想念跟他们在一起打打闹闹的生活。。。
那种疯疯癫癫的生活真的很有趣。。。
但是现在开始不会再有了，因为工作是完全跟读书不同的。。。
这个我清楚得很。。。。
我想我还会有几次跟他们见面的机会，过后就真的很难了。。。
除非我们在同一个区工作。。。不然，真的很难啊～～～～
我的大学生活，虽然喜怒哀乐都有，但是我会只记得乐的，其他的就让它过去吧。。。。
我的大学朋友们，谢谢你们陪我走过这四年，容忍我的怪脾气，容忍我的全部，我爱你们～～～～

Last day in UTM

today is my last day at UTM...
i really cant imagine my 4 years life in UTM finally come to the end...
time pass so fast, i feel like i jz enter UTM, but now is time for me to leave here and go into a new life for another new environment...
dis few days before i leave UTM i feel like i do a lot of thing...
i wan to keep every memory here...
i tot i wont feel sad when wan leave here...
but i m wrong... i feel a bit sad now....
feel like how gd if i still gt some semester to go n continue my study life.... T___T
i feel sad to leave everything here that had accompany me for 4 years...
my frens, lecturer, room, fac and many many...
i really wan to capture every angle of UTM...
i wan to keep it as my memory forever....
i wont forget everything here....
when is time to leave, then the feel of love ll appear suddenly....
i love everything here...
my frens treat me very nice coz i m going leave to here today...
we cant meet anymore until sept during convocation....
after convocation i really dunno when i can meet them again.....
really appreciate everything my frens here gv me....
love everything here..... <3

The End

finally, my university is really come to the end..
i had finish my final year project presentation jz now...
n i had pass it...
now d oni thing is waiting for my convocation...
time pass so fast...
my 18 years study life end like dis....
i really cant believe it...
i feel like i jz enter uni oni, but now is d end for my uni life....
i had stay at utm for 4 years...
i know my frens here for 4 years ad....
we enter uni together, but now we r going to separate...
going for our own future life.....
d next time for us to gathering together i think should be during convocation...
after dat i really dunno when i oni will meet all my frens here again...
although sometime we had misunderstood, we argue, but now wan to leave them i really feel sad...
dunno y, d sad feeling is suddenly appear in my heart....
when i recall bec my uni life here, i feel dat i really learn a lot here....
although thr gt some sad and unhappy thing but coz of all of this so dat i learn a lot...
i wan to forget alld sad thing n oni remember d thing dat i had learn....
and i wan remember all d happy life here...
coz i know i wont get back all dis kind of life anymore....
i m going to hv a totally new life...
i m going to face for d true realistic world.....
i really scare i cant face it but i ll try my best to do my best....
i going to start work n hv d working life...
i dunno how my working life going to be, but i will try my best to make my life d best.....

JYJ ~The Beginning~

this is my 'the beginning' album.. i really love this album very very much...
and dis is korea version that i bought it when i go korea...
so it is travel v me when i going korea... haha...
i love it cover... is very special... i like d red color plastic cover...
yes, they used red color no others color...
d CD oso in red color....
the design is very special....
even inside jz a simple CD and booklet but i really like d design....
and i gt a free poster... i hand carry d poster fr korea to malaysia..
i bring it very carefully fr korea to malaysia... hehe...
d most interesting thing is d CD shop that i go to buy dis CD is upstairs of nature republic....
in myeong dong, everytime enter d cosmetic shop ll get a free gift...
and d JYJ mask is d free gift dat i get fr nature republic... haha...
i go buy CD and get a free mask, and everything is JYJ...
i really excited when they gv me d JYJ facial mask...
until now i still din used the mask... and i think i wont used it forever and i ll keep it forever... hehe...