Monday, September 27, 2010

好压力啊~~~··

最近真的很压力啊~~~我真的就快喘不过气来了。。。我好累哦。。。
为什么我每次就是这么的不幸运,别人总是比我好。。。
我总是那个要经过很多考验才可以到达目的地。。。可以给我一次跟别人一样的好运吗???我也想要拥有这种好运啊。。。但是为什么我就是得不到。。。
为了psm我真的很累,累到不懂做什么才好。。因为我真的不懂该怎么继续,我不懂我该怎么做才好。。。我没有办法了。。。别人去论坛问,问题就解决了,但是我的他们竟然叫我问instructor。。。如果我的instructor可以帮我的话,那我就不会到论坛里问啦。。。唉~~~
天啊,帮帮我嘛,至少让我可以run出个东西show给supervisor看嘛。。。我现在什么都show不出啊~~~我该真么办。。。没有人可以帮到我,因为每一个人都没空啊。。。天啊,不然你可我一点的idea让我至少有idea怎么run我的programme嘛。。。我现在怎得走投无路了。。。不懂去哪里才好。。。我没路可走了。。。
我好想哭。。。而且也哭了几次。。。因为压力太大所以哭了。。。但是哭了还是没有办法解决我的问题。。。哭有用吗???我现在知道是没用的。。。压力大就哭,但是压力还在,还是把我压得死死的。。。我真的很压力。。。这种压力真的是让我想逃。。。逃出现实的世界,然后躲起来,躲到没有人找到我的地方。。。然后慢慢释放我那千万吨的压力。。。
我太压力了。。。psm真的是让我太压力。。。我怎么办啊???救救我吧~~~谁可以救救我啊???我的救命恩人在哪里啊???我好累。。真的好累。。。想睡但是因为压力所以根本睡不着。。。就算睡着了,但是又常发恶梦,我的睡眠根本就不好。。。我该怎么办啊???我又不懂该向谁分享我的压力。。。因为每个人都有压力。。。我该怎么办啊???我该怎么做啊???教教我吧~~~我可以做到吗???很多人告诉我,我可以做到。。。但是我现在真的很灰心。。。因为说的容易,做的难啊。。。
我好想大声哭出来,好想大声把我的压力都喊出来。。。。。
但是没有地方可以让我疯狂的释放我的压力。。。。
啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sunday, September 19, 2010

造就今天的我的手


前几天无聊,就拿着手机在家里拍照。。。
刚好爸爸躺在沙发上,而且他的手就放在头上。。。
我就拿起手机拍下来。。。
看着照片里爸爸的手,发现爸爸的手真的苍老了许多。。。
而且我深深的感觉到,爸爸为了让我有好日子过,他的这双手是经过了多少的辛苦。。。
因为这双手,才有今天的我。。。
每次看到那些白白净净,皮肤超好的手的时候,都会称赞一番。。。
但是,现在我终于明白了,其实真正美丽的手是这双虽然开起来不起眼,但是为了我付出很多,吃了很多苦的手。。。
这双才是我应该称赞的手。。。
这双才是我应该爱护的手。。。
看着爸爸的手,我真的觉得爸爸老了。。。
是时候我回报他的恩情的时候了,我希望我赶快毕业,然后找工作,酱我就不用再靠爸爸了。。。
而且还可以给爸爸钱,然后爸爸可以不用像现在这样辛苦的工作。。。
可以享福了。。。
因为爸爸的这双手,让我有力量继续努力,不要辜负爸爸对我的期望。。。

Saturday, September 4, 2010

first time

shi min, suphin n wyce ad bec to their hometown...
dis is d 1st time i stay at utm without 3 of them...
last time even i bec late but still gt shi min ll accompany me...
coz she will be d 1 who bec home late...
but dis time she ad bec to her home but still at utm..
now i dunno wat to do....
stay alone in utm, sojz watch tv n on9 lo..
since i m lazy to study...
hehe~~~
anyway i ll bec home later... ^^
bye bye utm...
see u after 2 weeks holiday.....
n annyeong my home sweet home....
hehe~~~

Friday, September 3, 2010

Raya Holiday ^^

now is 2:21 am... i ll be bec my home sweet home later at 9:30pm...
n act so far my fren almost all go bec ad..
n tml my best fren oso ll bec... so tml noon till nite i ll be stay alone at utm... dis is the 1st time i m d 1 who bec d last 1... normally i wont be bec late 1.. hehe....
tml dinner i ll be eat alone... dunno wan go dabao at arcade or eat maggi in room... i m wonder bout it.. hehe... mayb go dabao at arcade... but if i m lazy so jz eat in room... :p
i m so happy dat i can bec my home sweet home since i ad around 2 months din bec ad... n dis coming dec holiday i oso dunno can bec or not since i nid to do my pSM n go Korea... hehe...^^
dis sem really a bz sem for me... n d presentation for my psm1 oso cooming soon.. i now act gt a bit nervous ad.... n i hope i can doing it well... hope i ll at least do something during my holiday.... but i really scare i m really enjoy my holiday n din do anything leh.. hopefully i ll a bit hardworking la...
i dun wan later after holiday rush for everything... dat time i ll be like crazy ppl..
coz after holiday, we nid to do d raising fund activity for our korea trip... hopefully at least we can get something for our trip... so i can save as much as possible for my trip... i really hope so... ^^
anyway, now i m waiting for d time come, then i can bec my home sweet home.. i really wan bec home to enjoy a bit... i oni can enjoy a bit coz i nid to do some thing for my psm... hehe...^^
really hopefully i can do some on my psm..
i ll enjoy hard, working hard during my 2 weeks holiday...
hopefully i hv a wonderful holiday.... :P
i love my home very very much...
cant wait to going bec n sleep on my smelly bed.. hehe... ^^
HAPPY HOLIDAY~~~~ WOOHOO~~~~~~~~

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

finally is come


i m very happy recently....
coz i m jz finish my project n i m confirm dat i ll go Korea at dis coming dec...
dis is my dream n my dream ll become true soon...
hahahaha~~~
i m really happy....
n i start prepare for my trip ad...
i start discuss v da jie bout all d requirement for winter coz d time i go korea is in winter...
it sure ll be very very cold...
n i hope it gt snowing during d few days i going thr..
i wish i can see d real snow...
hehe~~~
i m start preparing my trip...
i hope i can hv a nice trip....
finally i can go KOREA.....
i really really very very very happy.....
woohoo~~~~~~~~~